The woman that I am

 Its not easy is no excuse it's  just the way I  am. 

Scared my lifes past mistakes are catching up to me.

Hidden demons haunting my nights crawling into my peace. 

I have done all I  can to exercise them out of myself. 

Wounded my scars still burn no salve can ease them.

Woman that I am I buried them in shallow graves.

I needed them hidden so I can nurture my soul.

Rain dont wash the dirt away they must not be found.

Live another day just hanging on to the lies.

They must be kept  from me stay away I pray.

I borrow what the world doesn't see as mine to ease the pain.

There is a name to what I have let myself become unashamed.

For in this madness I am finding the strength to carry on.

Bittersweet  and so profound you accept me as I am.

Calling me a warrior woman that has strength I did not feel.

I am not weak just so very tired trying to be myself.

In a world that may see my heart as foolish and naive. 

Letting myself just drown in emotions above my head.

Believing that the answers will come sooner than they may.

There is so much in me no one else will ever know.

Only you see the woman that I am.

Namaste my Sweet

Beloved

 I can turn back time when I close my eyes.

Remembering that night yet again.

The whispered nothings that crossed our lips.

Your body's warmth keeping the chill at bay.

Stolen kisses and all the rest never forgotten.

I am there yet again in your arms.

A place I wished I could be somehow.

Impossible as it seemed  I dreamed

If only for moments we found the way.

Awake not asleep I lived in your embrace.

If you close your eyes can you feel that moment. 

Recall any of the tender nothings whispered.

Your eyes calling me beautiful for the first time.

My fear and want displayed on my face.

Your secret kept close to your heart.  

I can turn back time to the once again.

To every second I have spent with you.

Shared embraces words spoken softly.

That passion in our eyes still there.

Beloved  I call you now unafraid.

I.

For you again

Maestro 

Tu sabes que te Amo