Years

 It took me a little over 40 years to find you again.

We'd done this before I think you somehow knew I'd come.

Waiting for me to reappear annoyed it took me so long.

Trying not to show your disappointment  in my ignorance. 

It took me over 40 years give or take some days.

I lived in my shadow, my shell you always on my mind.

I wish I would say, but it will never happen no way.

Trapped in my existence , never seemed to be the plan.

It took me over 40 years of heartache to finally give in.

Nothing to lose,nothing to gain ,nothing expected.

Other loves I'd wished were real all forgotten. 

Vows that bound me broken to loveless lies.

It took me over 40 years to look in ernest. 

I Threw it out to the wind took that last chance.

Only to find the unexpected hiding in the past.

You seemingly waiting knowing what to say.

It took me over 40 years to finally  believe. 

Yes you had seen me as I had wished you would.

Your words were held silently in your heart.

Waiting for me to come again after all those years. 

Divino  Amor