This lives deeply inside me.
Thoughts are not just some jumbled fairytales.
That my words try to recite again and again.
Trying to explain what cannot be said.
This has a narrative all it's own.
It doesn't let me forget it's there inside me.
In every movement that I make I feel it.
Caressing my soul gently in its arms.
I live in its welcome tight embrace.
In a light that was always there unseen.
That tiny spark planted long ago prevailed.
To shine inside of me.
In the darkness of the night I wake yet again.
Alone and bones aching to be warmed by you.
I no longer dwell in the absurdity of life.
The facts that keep you away from me still.
In the blueskyed night I rise to another day.
Blessings sent from last night's text still hold.
I love yous still smiling on my face.
Wishing yet having you near somehow.
In the starry dawn I come awake to you.
Your tender thoughts still linger in my ear.
Voiced to me in little words only I can hear.
They linger in puzzles once again.
In the light of the rising sun I see you.
Here for all our days we are one.
You hide no more there's no choice.
I told you so not so very long ago.
It took me a little over 40 years to find you again.
We'd done this before I think you somehow knew I'd come.
Waiting for me to reappear annoyed it took me so long.
Trying not to show your disappointment in my ignorance.
It took me over 40 years give or take some days.
I lived in my shadow, my shell you always on my mind.
I wish I would say, but it will never happen no way.
Trapped in my existence , never seemed to be the plan.
It took me over 40 years of heartache to finally give in.
Nothing to lose,nothing to gain ,nothing expected.
Other loves I'd wished were real all forgotten.
Vows that bound me broken to loveless lies.
It took me over 40 years to look in ernest.
I Threw it out to the wind took that last chance.
Only to find the unexpected hiding in the past.
You seemingly waiting knowing what to say.
It took me over 40 years to finally believe.
Yes you had seen me as I had wished you would.
Your words were held silently in your heart.
Waiting for me to come again after all those years.
Divino Amor
